.... there is only two commanders in my life,
God all mighty's faith showing me the path,
my girlfriends mind, body, soul and grace that rules my heart.
Not that I'm without strength or will,
not being a doormat or being so called " Yes man ",
it's the other way around, She is putting me as her prefered Alpha,
man of choice, she deserves nothing less than the best then !
With grace and honor I will be her shield, weapon of choice.

.... Even if Im down in a root,
broken trying to heal, striving to get ahead,
searching for Gods grace, living a world of population of 2.
Longing be loved and appreciated, be a better companion
to open the door of true love, not to be alone.
Changing my poverty life to something meaningful,
struggling to undo all once mistakes and relinquish once wrongs.
To be better for me, her and the once I left behind.
Seeing all the good one can do, a higher purpose,
re-leave pain and suffering, heal others.
Dilemma of having a compassionate and empathetic heart,
you want todo so much more, feeling time is short.
Nothing is more important now than my own journey and hers,
hard to mantle an entire world on once shoulder as-well.
My strength is not my own at this time and space,
I'm eternal sorry I can not help anyone else,
I'm here and now in population of 2,
me and you, our faithful journey.

.... all my little lights was blown out,
all alone, tainted and beaten, feeling defeated.
Never to hear the true loves serenades.
Praying to fill and light up my neglected heart.
As my last candle dimmed you stepped in to my world,
rekindled my skies with millions of bright little lights.
Bringing abundance of hope never to be alone again.
Strengthen my faith and given me purpose and joyful life.
Taken your hand and all my little lights shining bright,
in your presence there is plentiful to even give away.
Together our lights heals and guides us as one,
my wish and prayer I will never falter you,
will love and honor you until end of time, in return
never letting your little lights go out,
love you .....

....Oh honey, the intensity of my caring love for you
has no visible boundaries, my affection stays true and always.
In the layers of that ideal and stunning mind of yours, I could wander endlessly.
Follow the contours of your enticing gorgeous figure,
letting my firm hands safeguard your glorious soul.
You awake In me all that's makes a man truly strong,
by just inhaling all that makes you a perfect woman
evokes pure chivalry that would never abandon your gracious side.
Your gentle touch breaks strife and relinquish pain,
your velvet words makes all longing nights turn into bright hopeful light,
a smile makes my inner being take flight and soar for you alone.
There is no end of wondrous words , poems or songs,
depicting the the unique precious woman you always are.
When I'm with you, my faith is strong and darkness is long gone.
I will always hold on, oh my honey

.....never been more vulnerable than I'm at this very moment,
never been more truthful than this, never been more honest than now.
For you who have followed this blog sens the start,
it's an out of this world, blossoming long distance love affair.
From my perspective, an act of grace, twist of faith that brought me to her side.
For her and for the first time in my life,
I can feel comfortable in my own skin and beliefs,
For her and for the first time in my life,
I'm beginning to feel purpose and true joy of life.
For her and for the first time in my life,
I'm beginning put my own life, trust and soul into someone else care.
For the first time, I'm alive ! I sens glorious.

We waltz along our mutual understanding,
two unique heartwarming souls in deep relation,
so compatible but she keeps her heart so low and hidden.
I never could do anything without my heart in it, its not within me.
If not 110% of me is enough, I dig deeper and give 110% more.
I rarely expose and open up this way, being vulnerable,
but for this girl is worth more than I can give,
she is the lyrics and gospels that defines all that's everlasting
and gorgeously beautiful in this world.

I'm in torn within myself,
all though passionate much more than most,
attentive creative kind soul without end,
I still feel unworthy and inadequate for someone like her.
I wish I was not a poor alone desolated man, no career insight,
I wish and pray I could build her a rightful home,
satisfy all her earthly and emotional needs.
I wish and pray I could save her as she saved me.

We have each other, here and now,
at the moment content on where we are going.
I never give up hope on us, it's the right thing to do !

Have faith and never give up !
I was born to say I love you !

.....trough out my life, as far long back as I can remember,
always felt like an outcast, an outsider, endlessly looking in.
Living and admiring others from a far, never feeling at home.
Always striving to find purpose, clinging on to a thin thread,
a hope glistering and whispering in the distance.
Always choosing being in the back-rows, silent and still.
At night arguing against angels and God, pleading for answers,
getting everything all wrong and twisted.

Was wandering blindly, straying from the true path,
both of my own choosing and circumstances out of others control.
By every close call at the brink of the edge, nearly falling over,
grace stepped in, saved me, again and again and again.

Thought my estrange large gathered passion, creativity and fiery love
could not be tamed or harnessed, always to be left as a forsaken outcast.

This is where she unwillingly became
 my center piece, my compass guide of truth, faith and hope...
My drive out of my shell, my strength and compassion.
She ignites my soul for passion & faith, gives me purpose.
She brings order to my life, Im at home,
no more an outcast.

She might not told me everything,
holding back,
might be a rouge... who knows.....

Does not matter,
She is now my only girl in this life,
Living together to just be happy,
enjoy life, strive forward, be alive, give back,
hold and protect and give love.
Foremost trust our new found faith for each other.

.......darling, I'm amazed by you,
everything you are and do is captivating and charming,
every fiber of my being wants to defend and cherish you,
enshrine a safe harbor for us to flourish and grow.
 you are all that I adore,  It's not hard to over-indulge you.
I wish and pray you can see trough my hopes, trust and eyes,
that you are nothing but perfect and are safe in my arms for ever !
It's stressful and hard at times, as I have to blindly trust you,
as you have to put your privacy & trust in me.
My hope is that you finally see and open up,
let me hold you hand for a change, let me lead you out, eye to eye,
your gorgeous, I'm proud and honored have you by my side.
You know that I would bend over backwards, always loyal until the end.
With our qualities, everything is possible, nothing we cant do or achieve,
with our openness to each other, attentiveness and able to talk about anything,
we go trough every bump with ease........