.....Faith have a way of embracing me, nudge my path,
puts me in the right moment, at the right time for a reason.

I always been spiritual but never truly believed,
all though my broken past and all the signs.
Always known had guardian angels,
It all started when I was about two years old,
did a balancing act two stories up on the balcony rail,
one tiny step I would had fallen down to a early grave.
Escalating trough out my childhood,
been close to death one to many times,
always saved by faith and blessed for a reason.

Remembering as a troubled traumatized child,
standing in my underwear hitting my little hand
trough that big glassed framed painting.
Breaks into thousand deadly pieces
shattering and flying all over the room
Only one single shard hits me,
penetrates 1/4 of inch just below my eye socket,
seeing myself in the mirror as the wound hit an artery,
blood in a steady stream in-front of me,
one tiny inch either direction and I would had been blind.

Countless stories of close death calls,
going trough traumas that taken so long to overcome.
In my loneliness & secrecy praying and trying to be heard,
trying to understand, always left with one thought,
have hope and faith, it will come.

Every-time when I needed the most, they stepped in,
picked me up from my knees, carried me for a while,
Sent me the thing I needed the most at that just time.
Changed my path to where I needed to go.

Within my family there is a linage of prophesy dreamers,
I have this ability at times, something I rarely speak of,
as many would think Im nuts and want to mark me for it.
I get very vivid special dreams, something out of the ordinary,
within these if something grand or shattering is about to happen,
I get signs from it. Has happen a few times, and always been right.
But never could act upon them, as they only make sens afterwards.

With this in mind, over 20 years ago,
I've meet this woman in the most unlikely places and circumstances.
Was sitting my back turn to there table,
eavesdropping unnoticed with my friends.
They where  talking about prophesy and clairvoyance,
this older lady had this ability, she suddenly turn over to me and my table,
and said "You get yours when your about 40"

There is so much more to this story,
so much unsaid and untold, hands of faith to be revealed.
Im just going to leave and end this post with just saying
God blessed my broken road and it brought me to you !

..........this world has multifaceted ways to have a relation,
love can start and grow in the most curious places,
it can be so out of touch of reality but in essence all the same.
An online relationship can be as much real and true as
the couple walking down the road holding hands.

Love, affection and togetherness has no boundaries,
no matter the walks of life, where or how it happens.
When two people mutually connect, walking side by side,
to them its the right choice, right time for there happiness.

Before this journey started, before I believed in myself.
I walked a very dark and shadowed life,
hidden and enclosed in a bubble, escaping reality of life.
Hiding in dark corners looking in as an outsider.
Never knowing or accepting my true potentials, always waiting.

It's been like grace of faith I'm alive today, over and over again.
So many times being close to death and been mysteriously alter course,
like being carried by guardian angels in the corner of my eyes,
just waiting for the right time to come to the right place.
Like being kept on-hold for a grand finale, a higher purpose.
Much of all this making more sens now, as I found myself in her.
I'm not a religious person all though I must admit, and still today,
I from time to time, prayed to the spirits
or who ever might be listening for help.
Meeting this girl is nothing more than godsend to me




Never told her this,
even though we might only have an online relationship,
from time to time being complicated, as we grow and trust each other,
she is the reason I waited to break my bubble ! My time to be me,
and its all hers or no one else's..........

[Might be continued]

.....week that followed she saved my life,
she sparked my desolated heart into a steady unbreakable flame.
My life was bare, self-tortured and isolated.
Reaching out and yearning for a purpose.
Countless years in a tormented quest
to find my rock, my caressing muse, my true self.

She cleared the path,
She did not mind the thorns,
She saw destiny where I did not,
She broke every chain holding me down,
She made me stand tall,
She sparked my bonfire heart.




She got into my darken soul,
snapped her delicate sensual fingers,
engulfed me with warmest fiery light,
the ground underneath shook as I rises.
Her sensual aphrodisiac healed my past scars.
As the angel she is, cured my fears of the future.
The love we make elevates our lonely spirits.
We started a long invigorating journey together,
part of is, to be the man and woman we infuse us to be.
In heart, body and souls.
For her, for me, for us.
She will always be my glorious !



Months to come and still continues to day,
 I turned my life around on a single dime,
going from feeling being last to be the head of the wolf-pack.
Already shredded over 66 pounds of my back,
She inspires me to be the better man,
turning my bad doings to the truthfully right.

As we live so far apart,
many don't approve or understand our long distance relation,
It is an agonizing pain and strain of trusting each other,
but I keep her safer than my own self, loyal until I die !
I pound faith into my rugged chest each and every day, for the both of us !
Every time we meet, makes us happier than the day before,
our well-being and happiness is what counts,
our moments together makes time truly stand still.

[To be continued]

...As we continue, I need to get you familiar with virtual worlds.

There are countless people, spread all over the world,
logging into virtual worlds and taking on different personas.
Ranging all from a simple social media app,
just to share daily quotes or give anonymous advice
to elaborated lifelike environments, creating an alter-ego of yourself.

Secondlife is a rich user created world with all you can imagine,
there is enough materials, creations and explorations to last for years.
In this world your can create anything, be anyone and anything !
Your mind and fantasy is the true limit.
It's a compact version of real life.

Part from expressing yourself by creating your avatar,
you are stripped down to bare essentials to communicate.
Demanding you to be creative, expressive and foremost social.
Many only use the text chat option to mingle and do things,
but you can at anytime use microphone voice to either talk public
or if you so choose to, talk in private.

As you are stripped from reading body language,
only thing you go on is there avatar, profile and what they say.
At first it's a constant mind-game of faith, confidence and trust.
Nothing is face-value, sort of heighten observation of how they
react, how and the way they said it.

When we meet few months ago,
I was about to log and thought of leaving everything behind,
my self esteem right then was at its all time low,
my plans for building my clubs has gone astray.
Had difficulty leave out my emotions, as I wear my heart on my sleeves.
Exploration of being the bad " good " boy was coming to an end.

So was about to log,
thought I might check if anything is going on at my regular spots.
During my years of Second Life never encountered many from my own,
so already when we where introduced by another
for being from the same country, Charlotte was her real name,
but wanted to be called by her second name, Desiree, I got nervous.

So used to only speak in English, now I got blond and stumble on my words.
Noticed directly that she was someone who took good care of her avatar,
it was enticing playful , very pleasing and bubbly of sweetness.
Quick glans over all her profile,
As I heard her sensual voice and gorgeous personality for the first time,
everything else dropped. Anything and everything around me did not matter.
It was one of them rare moments, your chest pumps out of pleasure,
you feel a that tingling feeling surge along your spinal cord as you
turn around, my eyes glimmered passionately "Oooh Hello"
Time, space and reality did not mean anything anymore, it was just me and her !

Now your blind and only confiding in what you hear, how they are
everything else is canceled out, left to once vivid imagination.
I was mutual connection of hearing once voices reacting to each other.
It's like pealing layers of once personalities, expectations and insecurities.
It was more than common conversation. It was a lustful sensual erotic battle.
It was hard to keep up in the electrifying storm that's brewing around us,
it was tidal waves after tidal waves of enjoyment being around each other.

Seemed like forever, timed stopped, enclosed and bonding,
we where twirling around each other. For every new nuances revealed,
my walls breaks down, one after another, like clothing being cut of, part by part.
All until I'm totally defenseless and bare, then we sensually connect as one,
explode lustfully into a giant supernova, cleanses me of every self doubt and
lights up my broken heart with an everlasting flame.

[to be continued]