...straight from god honest heart,
I'm so sick of being the silent one,
eaten up dead inside, all of this is killing me.
I will not bare all these crosses and lies.
It all began as written first post of this blog,
we meet in one of Second life adult sex places,
one of her secret adult stripper alts,
took me by storm and conviction,
at the time seemingly a granted prayer.
Did not take many hours
until we brew the perfect storm,
she blew my mind over and over again.
Almost immediately we began to spend every waken
and even sleeping hour together over the phone and skype.
We where inseparable, perfect couple, steps away from marriage.
She let me into her whole world, virtual and real life,
became the one I could die for her
She could not face her own insecurities and past,
Later I was gagged, controlled and caged
sworn to silence and secrecy,
everyday living as a couple,
her own family that I counted as my own,
lived just outside there house in a mini house,
was all around me virtually as well as real life,
as we cammed and was so close, shared everything
even working online in second life with kittycats on vygg,
along side her mother and father in second life,
forced me at times not even allow me to talk to them,
wanted me even to play gay so they dont notice,
everything breaking me down to my knees,
forced me to live trough her own double life
of her highly religious family.
her two face mannerisms telling me
this is only for online, nothing real life,
on the other hand she talking true love,
saying cant live without me and loved me.
I always go by heart, I'm to kind for my own good,
I granted her wish feeling like the only women in the world,
because that's what my true love does,
I walk trough fire and hell to meet you there every time !
I not only listen I'm there where you are every single time !
Even used my real address to order sexy outfits.
She always said "I dont listen" ,
sadly she was the one who did not.
She forced her self to push me away,
going against every grain of the truth,faith,hope and heart,
By doing this she pushed me into literally insanity,
she ripped my heart out of my chest,
crushed my soul and its now lost to me.
I literally lost everything, I'm standing alone.
I can carry your crosses,
but I will not carry your lies and secrets,
guess a liar and cheat always one,
and nothing but trouble, just heartless, sending me straight trough hell...