// so many years passed by,
still dealing with the aftermath you caused,
a total wreck walking alone in hell,
nothing has healed,
all my efforts in the dark to no avail.
My mind and health deteriorating
everyone just keeps walking by.
In comparison you moved on so fast,
living life, like nothing happen, now that your married,
probably even with child on the way soon.
So grats to you, got what you wanted,
Cant escape your ghost, while I, falsely rots alone in personal hell....

 

 ...so many years, still want to feel you close


...the most beautiful thing you ever said "dont go, I need you"
You loved me when I could not even see my own reflection,
trough your eyes I could finally see myself.
Now in the dark scarred beyond belief,
inch by inch just taken away from me,
seemingly endless drowning of misery.
No amount of reason or apology can undo this,
yet if I could do it again, I be there in a heart beat.
Does not matter if the ending is the same,
it was worth the blitz of happiness that we once had.
But Im worse of than I began, lowest of low, even lost faith,
no end to this hell, dont know how to heal again...

...miss my old self,
had hope, faith and endless love.
Never felt pain like this,
opened my eyes and I see everyone else.
Shoulder burdens of humankind upon myself,
scars like thorns rips into me,
like torture never mends,
caged and have to live out hell,
keeps me falling to my knee.
with echoes into the darkness, why have you forsaken me...

//6 years and counting,
have not done any healing,
keeps falling living out hell
You ruined my life....

...lost in the memories,
I died way back then,
lost everything,
now in hell, still no way out
to far away from whats called a home.
Every thought of you brings me down onto my knees,
wounds wide open as if it was yesterday,
guess you will never know how much you have hurted me


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